I think this is all bullshit.

I just wrote a check for rent from my dwindling checking account, still have not found a job, and for that matter, just don’t want to.  Thinking of getting something stupid like a waitressing job while i figure things out. I just know I can’t pay rent for September.

I have been thinking of moving to some artsy community, finding a cheap place to live, and working in a studio and selling art. I want to get off all my meds, even birth control.  I want to stop depending on my car so much.  I want to stop spending more than 75% of my (former)income on rent and utilities and food.  I want to simplify.  

I just dont want to be here.

 

I want to leave.

One Response to “I don’t want to do this anymore.”

  1. hollytraveling said

    Know it’s trite, but don’t give up hope.

    It’s good to want to take control and make changes, but make sure you that you think it through first and make the best decision for you.

    Best of luck!

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