Ouch. (let me count the ways)
July 28, 2008

Two weeks.
I’ve had two weeks off since my last day, and it’s getting old. The first week though, i went on a trip.
The second week, which is lingering here tonight, I threw out my back. I’m thinking slipped disk here.
Sharp stabbing pain when I walk, when I sit, when I sneeze, when I turn over at night.
Not fun.
And, NOT ONE REPLY FROM ANY JOB APPLICATIONS!
what the fuck?
I also cancelled my appointment with my psych last monday. He had started me on Wellbutrin TWICE a day, which made me all jittery, jerky, nauseous, and man, that buzzing in the ears- shit. It was bad.
So I gave myself an unproffesional opinion and cut down to my original once daily regimen.
I do feel better. And I dont really want to go back. He was a dick, and said that therapy was basically a bunch of crap. Drugs are the only way! If everyone just took drugs then our society would be a happier one. Um… are you serious?
And my therapist- I saw her thursday, sitting/writhing in pain on the couch, while we basically shot the shit. It was pointless and felt like highway robbery when I handed over my co-pay.
We scheduled an appointment for monday. I cancelled Friday.
Yeah. Not sure what to think about that. Not sure what to think about many things. Like career-wise. I think I need to take a few classes to get myself up to par. No one is answering my emails! Not even the lame-ass postings for receptionist. (i’m getting a bit desperate here)
I am ok for rent for August, but am screwed if I dont get paid by September. Something has to happen!
Oh Strange Universe, I have a feeling something is out there, I just hope it shows up soon.